Sometimes you just get lucky /and sometimes you don't

Fi you,

Fr st of all let me apologize for not writing lately.  I have been so busy getting the church Christmas play written and now the fun part begins as I choose the players ,  At least this year we won't have to decorate much on the stage.  OH does  anyone know how to build a SUV for the stage? Almost  the entire thing takes place while they are traveling to grandmas house. The people who usually design the set will not be there as their daughter is getting  married.how dare she right?

he other time consuming thing has been getting a book of poems published.  The book is called Just Thoughts by Sharon Dock it's not much but I tried

AS  you can tell I am not using voice recognition today. I am afraid  my computer needs a whole new something.It has a mind of its own. 
I met the most fascinating women while playings Canasta on line this morning. her name is Sandy fun Texas/ Since I have retired I haven't been there but once.  I Miss flying over the roads as your landing . The first time scared me so much.  And you know I"m not scared of anything. one of the first things I noticed about Sandy was her respect for the Lord and those who follow his teaching.  The second thing was her love for children and family.  I just really like her and even if we never talk again I will hold you in my heart  as a friend.
MY friend Judy is due to have surgery soon.  It is a very scary surgery.  If you get a sec Say a little prayer for her please.  She has had a  mighty rough year. Judy we  love you., but you all ready knew that di dn't you.  Love you more.
And I will talk  to you about publishing when you are better OK?

There I got  some stuff taken care of .  I feel better now.


Ihope your week was good and your weekend even better

Church should top it off just right.


Luv ya. Sass




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Strange moods

 I am in a strange mood, and no one wants to play with me.  Just anything silly to make me laugh or at the very least smile.   I am in great need of a smile.  Do you have days like this? I hope so I would hate  to think I have lost it,, but I feel I am having trouble finding it quickly.

A  friend and I went to a Southern Illinois University today and watched the frat and sororities do little skits to introduce their members.  It was very amateur which made it better.  Then we stopped for Mexican food which was really good. and we didn't overeat because they let us share everything from the entree to the dessert. What a good  idea.

I have decided to try to publish some of my work.  I was totally surprised when they told me it was   to cost about $1000.  Somehow I had always thought they paid me.  I don't know what to do. I have called 3  publishing places and while they are interested I think it's more interest in the money than the work. 
I think I have enough poems for a small book.I would love to have that done. So If worse comes to worse I will pay for 5 books maybe unless they change the cost.. IT should be around $500.  I feel guilty since we are on a fixed income. We should use it for something more practical.

The plays I have written I am going to send to the Standard publishing company  I think. They publish the Sunday school books and such for churches so maybe they would be  interested.  I have to learn how to format it and other things I  Imagine.  Can anyone help me with any of this. IF you have published  anything I would certainly appreciate the help.  I wouldn't be able to pay I''m, afraid,

I just thought maybe google could help me. I doubt it though.  \\\

Better get  back to work. I am retyping all the poems and putting them together I hope it helps.


Don't forget church tomorrow. Say a prayer for all who are in pain. There are so many.And thank him if you aren't in pain.

Luv ya Sass

I guess you don 't want to huh?

I am disappointed.but not depressed that no one wanted to write for me.  That's a shame everyone has something to say or write and this is a great opportunity to let it all out.
While I have been quite busy writing the church Christmas play.  I have often told you that when I get a thought I have to jump on it right away or I lose important parts of it. That's a sign of something isn't it.?
Once I started working it only  took two afternoons to finish it.Now I just hope everyone likes it. I try to incorporate lots of humor along with a message..  I like what I came up with this year better some years in the  past/ Now all I have to do is come up with  A  stage that looks like a car. The whole play takes place in the car.
since I Parkinson's one thing I have allowed to indulge in is pedicures and manicures.  Before  became shaky I kept my hands and feet in good shape,  My husband suggested that I do it a few years and it stuck.  For some reason I can picture block afterblock of buildings in Viet Nam called colleges for the art of nails. I wonder how it got started that that particular group of people would excel in that type of career?
I am having trouble writing and keeping my font in line must  be time for bed. So  I will try to find something another day/
 Have a great week.  Luv ua Sass

OH no!

Aug 22nd was my sister's birthday and Aug 21st was her anniversary.  And yes I forgot.  Well, I didn't forget it all together I just put off calling or face booking and then it was too late on the 21st and again on the22nd.  I am so ashamed, 
In my defense which is really no defense at all we had two funerals this weekend.  That should have made me more aware right? right.
Now I need to come up with something unique any suggestions?  We are getting too old to dismiss it. besides i  would love to do something crazy for her.
My other sister's birthday is Sept. 22nd.  So if I come up with something magnificent for the first one I can give the 2nd one the same thing maybe.  Think hard and quick and remember that I am craft challenged so nothing that I have to make. Sounded easy for a second there didn't it?
Thinking back over the last two days it has occur ed to me how much funerals have changed just in the last few years.  Both of the funerals were very very nice.  The music now days is so appropriate and beautiful maybe appropriate isn't the right word. What I mean to say is that it fits the occasion so nicely.And short,  funerals are almost always less than and hour long. I wonder if the families have asked for less time or if those who do funerals have little by little done it..I don't think ministers know the deceased like they used to.  We used to go to the same churches all our lives and so everyone especially the preacher knew our families and has seen us grow up.
It really makes you stop and think so many friends and loved ones have gone home lately. And they are our age, I truly believe that if you look at the ages your parents passed away then that is a good indicator for your longevity.  My husband's mother's side all lived into the 90's.  I keep telling him he will probably live 20 years longer than I will.  I hope he gets married again to someone who loves all the things he does. I have not been very good as a mate to him I never learned to fish, or cook squirrel, or frog legs,or chicken livers, or calves liver..  The one thing I can say though is I have given him two terrific sons. and I have loved him dearly. 
Take a few minutes tonight and think about your married life and how much you depend on each other. Sometimes we forget to appreciate our grumpy old men or our crabby old women..The fun thing to do is just go into the room where he is watching TV. and even if someone else is in the room with him sit down on his lap and whisper in his ear "have I told you lately that I love yo?" He will probably turn red and say get off or something that under regular circumstances would hurt your feelings. But that just means you haven't done it often enough in the past..  SO don't let it upset you just try it again tomorrow night.  and the next  and the next.  he';ll come around,
Gotta go Poppy just sat down in the recliner I need to remind him that he rocks my world.
Luv ya. Sass
Don't forget church tomorrow.
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Can't figure our how to turn it.
Mybig sister isn't she cute and she still is.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dear God

Dear God,
As I sit here this evening I realize how much time I have wasted this summer.  I have let depression and pain rule my life .  Everytime I think I am getting a  handle on it, something triggers something else and down I go again. 
I have decided something must be done I can't go on with these ups and downs So  it's time to take control and get back in the game.
And you see I have all ready made a  big mistake. I am not in control/  You are in control. 
Please help me to remember that.
I want to laugh and smile and giggle
and feel happy why can't I do that anymore?
Another mistake
IF I allow God entrance he will help me
Please help me to rem em Ber that.
I don't  enjoy being around people
I feel like I am not interesting enough that people
would want to be around me either
Another mistake
You have given us the words if we will just say them
It's called the Bible . Don't just read it study it to show
thyself appproved.
Please help me to remember .
I don''t think anyone really knows my fears
I don't have a clue why  I am feeling
this way. 
my biggest mistake .  Prayer is the answer.
It's past time for getting down on my knees
and be quiet.  and listening to what God is
tell;ing me.
Please help me to remember that

God help us in whatever low place  has overtaken us .
bring us to the top again.
SaSS   luv ya.

Hi there,
Long time no see.  I have been trying to get to the point where I am not depressed.  It's so hard sometimes. 
I was finding that I was talking about how sick I am all the time. Very boring for other people, and then just when I thought I was doing better and had written in my blog it disappeared.  I could not find it anywhere. So I left thinking I would try again later.  That was quite awhile ago I must admit.
but i find that I have forgotten how to type now.  I am glad I'm not working anymore I would surely be fired. 
I truly do believe that light makes everything better.  My sister gets depressed as soon as winter hits./  She lives in Wisconsin and as you probably know winter is long and dark.She has been considering moving to a better climate, but for some reason those of us who have lived there for any length of time love this old state and can't bring ourselves to leave. 
Now one would think I live  there however. my little family moved to Southern Illinois in March  of 81.  Makes no sense does it? I didn't think so.

As you know I blog to be able to complain, It has helped me many times in working my way through problem's.  Imagine if you were really upset at someone or something. Then imagine  sitting down to the computer and just letting go  explaining exactly how you feel.  It's very therapeutic. Try it on my blog just go to the comments section let her rip.  I will probably read it because I am naturally a nosy person but I promise I won't report to  the police anything I read.  Let me amend that a little. Unless it's against the law .I just don't want to spend time in the facilities.  Although I am sure you are a very nice person I prefer to spend my old years with my family.

My complaint for today is HOW DOES THE SCHOOL SYSTEM FIGURE OUT HOW MANY DAYS OF SCHOOL THEY SHOULD HAVE EACH YEAR
Is it my imagination or does the semester get shorter and shorter.
It seems like the students just got back from spring break and then school was out.
Of course they had to go back for few weeks in order to have the prom and graduation parties.
Aren't we glad we could fit that in.  One lady told me she had spent more on her daughters last year of school parties and gowns than she had spent on her own wedding.  Remember I am nosy and so I checked the price of some of those gowns. And there was very little material on those dresses this year too.  They were cut low and strapless on the top and mini skirted on the bottom.I figure it was lucky if there were 3 yards of material. , 
Then we must not forget the snow days. Some states believe that an inch of snow determines the
amount to close the schools.  Again remember I was raised in Wisconsin and we really did walk 3 miles in knee deep snow in the winter.and that was a on a slow snow falling day. Those of you who are old enough do you remember 1980 or was it 81 when we had 83 inches of snow during the Christmas holidays.I walked home from work 10 miles in the street because it went too high on me that I couldn't.t step that high,  My husband was home with our sons I worked at the telephone company and was in charge of the operators.but I felt like I had to go home and be with my family on Christmas eve. WE closed the office at midnight and sent the calls to another office By the time I got home my eyelashes for coated in ice and I couldn't feel anything , believe me I felt it later though.
I got away from my complaint didn't I? Sorry.
SO in conclusion I want to say that I must admit that our children probably know more and that's not quite true. they know about how to get by in this age but I still believe us old folks know more about history, English, and yes even math than they do.  We were just taught how to figure it out differently.

OK that's my story and I'm sticking to it.for tonight. I missed you guys or maybe  even if no one reads this I still feel better for having written it. 

Have some fun  You never know when you might blow away in a tornado so live a little.  Pray for those who need it and pray for those who don't  think they need it. you will feel better.   I have one special request
Larry has been diagnosed with pancreatic caner. You don't know him and to tell you the truth I don't know him very well either but he needs us.You know some people feel they can't talk to God but you and i know how and we are comfortable going to him.thank you
Luv ya Sass

isn't it lovely

I can't believe how nice the weather has been lately.  It feels so much like spring that people around here have been working on their yards.  Trees look like they are getting buds on them and the grass is green.  Men are upset because they may have to mow if this keeps up.  I just hope it doesn't  freeze and kill the fruit trees and such. Makes you almost want to do my spring cleaning.  You will notice I say almost. 
Went to a Parkinson's meeting last Wednesday. It always amazes me that these experts who come to speak are so unsure of this disease.  Their answer for most things is everyone is different. so what works for one won't work for another.  And so many people are going for the dbs surgery it is amazing..  I kind of want to wait after listening to  a Dr of TV saying that they have experimented with a new procedure that is less invasive and no drilling holes in the skull.  SO far only people with tremors have been helped but they hope to try it on pders soon.   I think I have enough holes in my head all ready. 
I am so looking forward to the end of Match.  Our son and family are coming during spring break/.  I miss them   so much but I just have not been well enough to travel.  I am a little afraid of them seeing how much I have gone down hill..  I have tried to tell them but you have to see it in person to believe it.   I see the pity in some faces and so I know I do not cover it as well as I used to.  A lady from Church came up to me and asked it she could hug me.  I said of course why would you think you couldn't 't.  She said some of our friends had been watching me and saw what they thought was pain when I was hugged So they decided they would not hug me for a while.  To be truthful it did give me pain but it was worth every twinge/  I told her I could never get enough hugs and she will pass  it
along.
I see I have a new person on my reading list.  I wish I could get to know you all and find out why you read my stuff.  Not that I am complaining mind you I think it's flattering and I like it. Some time when you have read my note for the day leave a comment.please.  Jutka and Judy leave something from time to time but no one else.  and you know me I am a nosy rosy.
Have a great week.  Hope your weather is fantastic too.  God is good all the time and all the time God is good.but this week he's extra special weather wise.  Luv ya. Sass

I think I goofed again

For some time now I have been thinking that my hair is getting thin since all the med and so I decided after My husband suggested it that I would get a perm.  I think this was the fourth one I have had in my lifetime. I don't know why I did it bit I did.
let                                me tell you it really took. I mean I have corkscrews all over my head.  I t is not a pretty sight. Evaluative my husband looks at me he has to check himself so that he doesn't laugh.  I would laugh too if it were some one else.They told me not to wash it two days so that the curls will set better.And I really really really want to wash it and get rid of some of those curls, however, when I think of how much it cost it gives me pause to keep them at least for a few weeks .
The sad thing is that I know better.  The last time I vowed never to do it again.  My sons secretly called me bozo the  clown .  All that red hair and all those curls.Now my hair is w and coursers so the solution worked so well. when I get up in the morning I look like a wild woman/ and it itches too.
No more perms I am using that as my new years resolution.  I am just wondering how long this one will last , the lady who gave it to me said it would probably last longer than usual because I had virgin hair.  I'm not sure what that's means but I don't think it's a good thing.             
In fact I think I will go wash it now. I'll let you know how it goes.
Have a good day all and talk to God about anything and everything He's a  a very good listener. Luv ya Sass
                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

Friends are the best medicine

I am always amazed that someone actually reads my junk.  It says I have followers too. Imagine that.  I will try my very best not to lead you astray. 
Judy I am so proud of you for taking this big step.  I see where it looked like Sherry has had it 2 time now is that right?  I go to St Louis in June to see if I qualify or not.  I went to a seminar and that Dr. said they are testing a new procedure that is less invasive.  They don't have to drill holes or put in a monitor.  They hadn't tried it on Parkinson's just tremors.  It worked wonderfully well so we just need to keep our fingers crossed I guess.  I will be honest the drilling of holes scares me some, but I will do it if I can.  Keep me posted OK?  You can do it girl.
Jutka you are such a love. Always building me up I don't know how I got so lucky as to have you as a friend but I thank God everyday for you and Judy. 
As to the other followers I would like to get to know you better.  Did you read my stuff because of Parkinson's? IF SO  let me know I would love to hear how you are doing. IF you read me for some other reason tell me about it please.  I know some lady told me she started reading my stuff because of my walk with God.. IF that's the case I am very humbled and will continue to try and give him all the praise as it should be.    
Well time to work on this dirty house.  I have a new system I do two rooms a day. The only problem is that I tend to just shift stuff from the one I am cleaning to the one I cleansed yesterday.And the most distressing thing is that the kitchen needs cleaning 3 times a day.  There that's better I almost forgot to complain now that just won't do
Have a great day God is keeping watch so Let go and let God. :luv ya Sass

Boy am I fat

If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes I wouldn't have believed it.  The scale is set right too according to those who have compared it.  Here I am 5"4' and weigh a whopping 178 pounds.  My husband is 6"4" and weighs 190.
 I have only been this  big one time before and that was due to medicines. Part of it is medicines again but more is from just pigging out. I just kept eating and eating and eating.
Now I am having to start not eating and eating and eating.   So as of today I am counting points without actually going on weight watchers..  I have been on it before and had  pretty good results. I need to lose for so many reasons so I hope I can keep to it this time.

Hard to believe I weighed 118 when we got married.                                                                                         just look at all those skinny people.
I especially like th feather hat my mother is wearing.  Those were the good ole days.  You can see the difference in height.  Our boys are both over 6ft. So I really do feel little when they all three stand by me. 
This picture makes me a little sad because all four of our parents are gone now.  Good people>
Enough rambling time to get a little work done. Mopping the bathroom floor. anyone want to volunteer I didn/t think so. 
Have a fun week remember to stop and say hi to God from time to time.it will make him smile. 
luv ay. Sass                                                                                                                                             
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Happy but broke

We have this rule that we cannot owe anything on our credit cards from Christmas.  Well, I didn't add anything but I sure lowered our checking account.  We sent out mostly gift cards.  I don't know who started  the gifrt card thing, and I'm not sure I like it but it comes in handy especially for teenagers.
it does seem like you are not putting much thought into the gift though.
Now I have to work on building the checking account back up.
I have found that I have these rules that I make for myself since retiring and some people would think I am going off the deep end and they may not be too far off. 
I have this fear that something catustrophic will happen  and one of us will be in the hospital with a serious problem ,. and when we get the bill it will be huge.  So I think I have to keep at least a large amount of money where we can get at it. It is never touched.  I have watched as friends go broke on medical bills .  It really scares me.  I don't have much faith in insurance now days,.
I also do not make a new bill until the old one is paid off.  My husbasnd feels the same way for the most part but he thinks I go too far at times.  We needed a new roof and a different car at the same time and I wouldn't even look at a new car until the roof was completely paid for.  I don't know what I think is going to happen and I don't want to find out.
I also check my credit score quite often. I guesss after reading all this I must be a little parinoid,  Another thing to work on it the new year.
 Have a great day. say hi to God.

Luv ya  Sass